When we think of the atonement, we usually associate it with sins and repentance. Though that is a major purpose of Jesus Christ’s atonement, we are severely under-utilizing it if that is the only aspect of our lives we apply it to.
The scriptures tell us, “And he shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he will take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people….and he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities.” (Alma 7:11-12). (Interestingly, sins aren’t mentioned until the following verse.)
These verses mention Jesus suffering for our pains, afflictions, and infirmities so that He will know how to succor us. In that momentous occasion in the Garden of Gethsemane, our Savior suffered so he could know exactly what we would go through – our pains, emotions, feelings, afflictions, etc.- and how to heal us. He can heal us because he truly understands what we have been through and how it has affected us.
He knows how the abuse made you feel as an individual. He understands your anxiety, depression, feelings of unworthiness, self-loathing, fears, shame, and all the other effects of being sexually abused.
If we let Him, and as we learn, He can help us heal and turn those negative feelings into hope, peace, understanding, feelings of worthiness, and safety. Though it won’t erase the sexual abuse from our past or our memories, it can erase or alleviate the sting.
Additionally, Jesus did not abandon you during the abuse; even in those dark moments, He stayed by your side. He will never abandon you. No matter who you are, how you struggle, choices you have made, He will never leave you. He loves you.
Let the atonement heal and change you. It is for you and for me. This precious gift is for all who are willing to apply it. Allow it to be part of your healing process, the healing balm for your aching soul.